That was mostly a joke, I promise.
I think it's just so amazing how... tired I am. What a draining process. It's possible this tiredness also is coming from a fully day of elections, an evening of drinking and then having to wake up this morning to work for 9 hours at 8 a.m. But maybe it was the elections.
I still love the chapter, I still want to be a brother, but things just feel weird now. I thought people overreacted in the past when they lost at an election- and maybe I am overreacting- but it's hard to deal with the thought of not being on e-board, the thought that a majority did not see you the same way you did. Does that make sense? I'm not leaving the chapter by any means, and I know that it is more than capable hands, but I think I need to reevaluate my place in it a little bit to make things work. To keep myself feeling as happy as I have been lately.
The whole process was/is strange. Strange and draining. I think I might use this semester as a recharge semester. One maybe where I can put college in terms outside of APO. The frat really has been my life- so when I think college I think APO. Maybe I need to separate the two? Move forward? Keep on keeping on?
I don't know. I'm just exhausted. It's all finals, elections, and drama right now. I think it's nap time. And I think break is coming at a very opportune moment.
It was a tough race and I think you would've done a great job as Pres... sorry the chips fell as they did.
ReplyDeletePS next semester can we discover college outside APO together... I'm excited for some real college experiences... this semester was tiring. Next fall we'll take eboard back... haha. can you still have Phidays with Frankie so i can come and spend copious amounts of time with you? <3
Frankie- I think this will be a great semester for you. I was inclined to not take an e-board position because I just really wanted to.. read a book. Go to the gym. Learn how to play the guitar I bought. Spend more time having Katie peer pressure me into drinking Jager bombs. Um...
ReplyDeleteSo can you and KPease make sure I still do all that? Or at least, spend ample time with you. I really enjoy it and dont get to enough.
I totally agree loosing sucks, which is why I still kept going to e-board ha ha ha yeah I'm a dork... Take your time figure life out and make a splash but if you aren't super involved in APO please don't forget your friends, not that you have that problem, just saying...
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