Since my freshman year, everything has just felt very temporary to me. My parents moved out of our house and to a new state, and are now moving back again; my college friends keep appearing and disappearing and reappearing; relationships, friendships, classes, hair colors...
Everything changes very quickly to me. I haven't felt a lot of consistency since I moved out of my parents house two and a half years ago.
Because of this, a few things have happened: I don't care about change. I tend to be overly appreciative of every friend or place or boy who enters my life. I lose ties easily because in the end I cannot stay connected. And I drift. I just am not steady.
A realization kind of hit me hard today: I don't need to cling to keep the people I love close, nor do I need to push them away once they are at a distance. People who are in my life are there because they love me and they want to be there. And people who care enough about me to still put in the effort to keep in contact with me once I'm/they're gone- that's a pretty amazing person to have.
With every semester, with every graduation, every move and every hair color- things are going to change. Sometimes distance won't mean a thing, and sometimes I am going to be left in the dust. It's the facts of life, and it's a weird one to accept.
Damn you college, damn you.
Side notes:
Watch Dexter. Seriously. Now.
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I am currently locked out of my apartment- so enjoy this blog entry.
interesting. I could use a bit of that attitude myself, seeing as I often care too much about drifting, and change, and people, and well, everything.
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